~ What I Want ~

~ What I Want ~

Standing in a room alone
Occupying this space with my thoughts
I want the whole world in here with me
To know what this feeling is like
And see if there are others feeling this too.

At the same time I want to be taking off
Leaving this earth behind as I ascend above
This vast universe opening itself up for me
As I get lost with no way of coming back
Sailing forever among a sea of stars
Where my soul will feel something
That only infinity can evoke.

I’m a mystery to myself
Some days I think I know what I want
That I am settled upon this earth
But other days I’m left feeling something
That cannot be accurately said
But only felt deep within
As my eyes stare into the skies
And my heart aches for something
Not available in these surroundings.

I guess I’m not the only one
Haunted by indescribable feelings
Looking at what is in front of me
And deducing that it isn’t enough.

Like every great dreamer,
My bones long to dance in some forbidden place
The greatest and grandest of palaces
Which can’t be found with sane eyes.

I want to delve into the deepest caves
And find the gold which has never been seen.

I want to experience the totality of the galaxies
As my soul is set alight
By the essence of existence.

Bricks and mortar isn’t enough.
Weekend revelry isn’t enough.
Those items advertised to me on TV
Aren’t enough.

The incompletion is true,
And I want to find what perhaps
Every one of us secretly yearns for
That something that fills the soul with light
That causes death to become laughable
And finally satisfies the eternal ache for the ineffable
That exists in us all.